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How can you tell a want from a need or need to? Everything I do I try to ask my inner self, do I want to or do I need too ?? I try very hard to do things because i want to but, some things I need to do. Being in construction I feel my skills are taken advantage of more often than not. I feel bad enough charging anyone but it takes time away from my daily time with my family. So I ask my self

Do I want to help a friend for free ?

Do I want to help a friend . Period?

Do I want to take on this job?

In my mind I think I need to help

I’ve built my fair share of kitchens, bathrooms, basements and garages for free.... it’s not fair to my family I know this. I find it hard to say no , which is a huge fault of mine.

Work is getting daily mundane and repetitive, work is a need too. Some times I want to, I do really enjoy my job, mostly. There are days that it’s more of a need to. I hope to work because I want to, to find a passion that I really enjoy again. For instance I really want to build steel and wood furniture, that’s what I want to do, but the need is not that. When XRP or any other of my DA’s take off, I know what I’m doing. That spark that’s drives me again that’s what I need, YES NEED.

I used to want to work, I would work 16 hrs a day because I wanted too. Now I feel a struggle to work 6 hours, lately it’s been crazy at work. Maybe this work hate is coming from not having any days off in summer. I need a break, It’s September 1st and I think I’ve only had maybe 4-5 days off in 10 weeks ...... It’s kind of driving me crazy. And then yesterday I show up on site to inspect someone’s work before they get paid and this is what I see 😔 👇🏻

The brick work had to be taken down so all the rot could be fixed as nothing was flashed properly so the water damage was horrendous. So the brick was reinstalled and this is what I come to find. The brick is out of level by 1.5 inches. Are you kidding me ? So today this will be torn out and redone by our brick guy, who normally does incredible work. Everyone is allowed a bad or off day I guess. Funny thing, when I asked him about it he said

“Oh ya I noticed that but it must have been like that before , so I left it”

Are you kidding me ?

Some of this spark at work is dying, work is turning into a need and that’s not good. I feel that spark with Coil. A “want” is out of passion, out of love or caring, it comes from the warm place in the heart ... A “need” is from a darker place, something forced, something your made to do. In my life I’m enjoying the wants more than the needs and I’m sure I’m not alone.

All my blogs and posts that I write are from the warm place in my heart, the place that wants to share, that wants to write, that wants to create. I don’t have to write, if I had to do it I really don’t know that I could ?

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