I have lived many life times and worn many hats in my days on this earth ...I never really drank much when I was younger, all my friends from high school would want to go to the bar. I never really liked it. So what better thing to do, get a job as a bouncer at the bar. Got to see my friends and I got paid. I was 6’4” and 250 lbs, had 4 years of boxing under my belt and a few self defence classes so being scared wasn’t a thought that entered my mind. Plus I played hockey all my life and seen my fair share of fights. It seemed fun to me. When I was young I liked to fight. No one would guess this I’m very gentle, friendly giant people call me it , I’m calm, mild and level headed. Perfect thing for a fighter.

The place I worked was located in West Edmonton Mall, You’ve heard of it I’m sure. The mall, not the bar, Inside the mall was a skating rink, water park, full size pirate ship, submarine’s, 18 hole mini golf and an amusement park with a deadly roller coaster called the mindbender. Really though it was deadly in 1986 it came off the tracks. Three people died and sixteen were injured. The night club was Called Chaos, spelt Kaos, and had a interesting layout. The bar was set in a circle, located around the ring of that circle was separate rooms each with its own bar and with different themes of music Pop , 80’s , 90’s. Mostly I worked in the 80’s & 90’s rooms. In the 80’s room strobe lights were going off, bouncing off the mirrors .... To this very day if my ears even catch a syllable of Madonna’s Holiday I can just cringe

The bar was only open Friday and Saturday nights. It was extra cash that I was earning not spending at the bar. A few times a night we busted people doing cocaine in the bathrooms , they would do it off the back of the toilet and even having sex in the bathrooms. The bathrooms were disgusting, I couldn’t imagine using them. Having SEX in them ?! Not a god damn chance. Fights every night. One time I was pulled into a fight out side the bar, after the night was over the owner called me into the office and said to me “what ever you do don’t don’t fight out side the bar in the parking lot, the mall has cameras. Inside the bar we control our cameras” So no beatings outside the bar “ok, got it!” I agreed. One night, like many nights, my ear piece in leaning against the wall in the 80’s room and someone would say “Red Dragon Red Dragon.”

My heart sinks to my feet, Now I wasn’t afraid of much but this made me uneasy every time I heard it. Uneasy not from any fear, I was young and had no fear, the Gord of today would be finding the EXIT as fast as I could. Because he was randomly unpredictable, people that you can predict there thoughts, words and actions are easy to read and easy to fight. Red Dragon had an incredible poker face. I never knew what was going on in his head. He liked me or so I thought, So your wondering what or who is the red dragon? Well let me tell you...

Rewind to when I get hired .... I fill out all my paperwork and the owner says “there’s a little white guy with a dragon tattoo on his forearm, he is bad news but we gotta let him run the place if he’s here the front door will announce Red Dragon over the ear piece . Keep people safe and don’t piss him off” I’m thinking run the place ? What’s that mean ?? So I ask “just so we are clear what does run the place mean ??” He clears his throat, leans in and says “he can do what ever he wants. Free drinks. Hell if he wants to go behind the bar and pour his own you let him, slap a waitress on her ass ... you ... let ... him ... do ... whatever... he wants .... clear ? “ crystal clear I said. I’m ok with everything but the Ass slapping, Please don’t let me see that . I later found out he was gang affiliated and would basically shoot up the bar if not left to his own devices.... great, what did I get myself into.

So the red dragon PSA comes out over the radio, of course he comes to the 80’s room. Must have enjoyed, papa don’t preach tunes. He walks by me pats me on the shoulder and says “hey G” and continues on to the bar. A couple hours pass and he’s had a few drinks, talking to some ladies. I’m happy he’s playing nice with everyone. It’s about 12 am at this point, then my birdie in my ear She says oh shit “Sam Just walked in” Dragon and Sam do not mix. Like oil and water , coke and mentos. Sam is just a dumb kid who’s at the bar every weekend, harmless but an idiot to try to act tough against dragon. So I think to myself well now the night is fucked, but We intercept Sam and give him some free drinks in the 90’s room.

Things are going smooth once again. Fewf . So I’m watching dragon like a hawk, music is so loud I can’t hear anything. A lady comes up to me drunk making small talk, I’m leaning in so I can hear her. I talk to her for a minute and happen to look at dragon ... holy fuck he’s gone, shit . I get on the radio “dragon is gone, can anyone see him ?” At this point it seemed like no one answered for 5 min, radio silence. Then someone says he’s in the 90’s room walking towards Sam. Adrenaline kicks in and it’s shorter for me to go the other way around the circle, so I run the opposite direction to get to Sam first. All I’m thinking is try to prevent a big fight and maybe a killing, Sam not Dragon. But I was told don’t interfere with dragon.. As I’m rounding the circle, dragon is about 10 feet from Sam. I just make it there in time. “whoa guys everyone just chill out, free drinks , come on guys “ I spit out while huffing and puffing. Dragon says “ ok G it’s a good night I guess “ I turn to Sam to say “sounds good Sam ?“ and from around my waist dragon dives with a 10” hunting knife in his hand and stabs Sam right through the upper thy. The blade goes right through his leg and pops out the other side.

I can feel every pump my heart takes , pushing blood to all my organs and extremity’s. From that point everything happened so fast, a brawl broke out involving 25 people. Sams on the floor with a Rambo knife sticking out of his leg. Shit, Red Dragon is gone, “ I get on the radio and say “ dragons gone , get the cops NOW , get cops here RIGHT NOW !” I’m my head I think He’s gone to his car to get a gun. My eyes are on the look out for a glimps of dragon, using people’s heads to open the front doors as we throw them out for fighting Ambulance takes away Sam. Cops show up and we never seen dragon again, or did we. He never came back, ever, or so I was told . Shortly there after I quit, I was sure I’d see red dragon when I least expect it. And thought “I’m not getting shot for this place”

Some names have been changed to protect people involved and no his name was not pink unicorn 😂

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No not that kind, Not the Snoop Dogg kind ! Cutting it , maintaining it ... landscaping ect . This is a story how I got screwed by Tim , no dinner , no movie .... just screwed.

While the world sleeps .....

My title was a Monocotyledon reduction engineer, WTF is that you ask ??? Well the translation, Grass cutter. Monocotyledons are blade of grass . I’m cutting grass .... ok not that funny I know. Many moons ago I had a landscaping maintenance company, mainly on commercial properties the odd residential home too. When I first started I broke lots of car windshields, back window, side windows ect. You see in spring the gravel would be on the side of the grass from the harsh icy winter. As well as I power swept the grass to reduce the amount of sand and gravel, always some remained. So I had my business card and Apple auto glass card on me at all times, I would walk out and apologize hand them the cards and say go get it fixed. Apple glass would just charge me

I soon realized that I had to cut grass at night to stop all this mindless auto glass violence. This is where all my stories come from.

Wild things happen when the world is asleep !

I’ve had police helicopters come, fallen asleep at the wheel so to speak even drive off the curb and into traffic, trailers disconnect from the truck ... oh the list goes on and on. So one night a man approached me, looked like a regular dude. He says “I’m Tim , I have cigarettes for sale, do you some cheap smokes?” Well I don’t smoke but both my parents did so I said

“$100 for 4 cartons” he says. Now at the time I think 1 carton was $40-45 ? So I tell him “I’ll take 8 cartons” He hops in my truck and we go to a Shady little motel on the side of the hyw coming into the city, about 10 min from where I was working. I remember being so excited that I got such a smoking deal on the cigarettes. I stop put it into park he jumps out and I give him the money $200, he runs off behind the motel. I notice he left his jacket in my car, I was some how warmed inside that he left it. Because he wouldn’t leave his jacket if he was robbing me. He comes back to the truck sits inside and says “they will need 5 min to find the brand I want.” So we made small talk, about the weather , working night shift ect ... he said “I’ll go check on your order, be right back Gord” Off he goes behind the motel ......

Well I realized I got scammed, 😡 I noticed when he left the truck this time he took his blue denim jean jacket. Tim, if that’s his name, fucked me ... Yep he’s not coming back. What was I to do, go the police and say I was trying to buy illegal cigarettes and I got scammed. Nope so help me wave it good-bye, put your hand in the air like Ralph here and wave good bye to my $200.

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These four little words have been muttered since what feels like the beginning of time. It’s been used as the excuse when boys misbehave and cause a ruckus.

It was 1963 the president, John F. Kennedy, hasn’t been assassinated. Spring has come to this normally cold Canadian town, it’s 7 am on a Wednesday “ Larry your going to miss the bus, hurry up !” Yells his mother. Larry come running down the stairs jumping every second step from his second floor bedroom , grabs the banister and swings around, almost to gain momentum and sling shots in the kitchen. He’s done this everyday, multiple times a day, today is the day the newel post breaks. The top ball cracks and splits off, Larry now airborne 2 feet off the ground smashes into the wall and cracks the plaster. Mother comes running “what the hell Larry” she hollers “ wait till you’re father sees this, you’ll be grounded !” He runs to the fridge, grabs his lunch and runs out the front door “sorry ma, it’s not my fault , love you “ as the screen door slams behind him.

It’s Larry’s last year of primary school, next year he’s in Junior High. Pa said he can come to work with him in the summer up north, driving graders for new road construction. Lar, as the guys called him, has been driving graders since he was a wee lad. He can run circles around any man.

Larry grabs the paper bag lunch and briefcase, hustles off the bus to meet his friend Johnny. Larry and Johnny had a little business selling things at the swing sets. “I’ve got a new Playboy from my dads stash, it’s an old one he won’t know” says Johnny. “Cool, Marilyn Monroe” Larry gasps . Both boys frantically looking through the magazine, eagerly flipping each page, one after another.

Dave comes over and says “ Hey Lar, you got any smokes today?!” He sets down his brief case, pops the locks “ ya what u need ? 6 for a quarter?” He’s making good money off the smokes, it’s his top seller, as he buys em from a machine for $.28 cents a pack. No one needs to know that fact. In his little tattered black brief case stash he has, chocolate, liquor from home, dirty mags, chewing tobacco, cans of coca-cola among many others thing. “ Yeah, gimmie 6 “ Dave says . They do the exchange and both boys go on there way

Mathew come over “Anygood reading today Larry ?” Which meant , what dirty magazines do you have “Yes, yes we do, you wanna keep it or just look at it ?“ Larry and Jonhhy sold the books or rented them “ Just look, here’s 5 cents” Mathew stammers. All three boys open the book and start flipping . Johnny opens to the center of his dads Playboy, turns his hands and says “Look at this gentleman!” Showing Matt and Lar the Centerfold with Marilyn nude . “ Holy cow balls” Matt shouts. “Holy cow ball indeed “ says principle Mackenzie

“Mr Mackenzie!!!” All three boys shout as they throw Marilyn in the air”

“ To the office, Come with me all three of you And bring your briefcase” says Principle Mackenzie

All the boys in school would call Mr. Mackenzie, Big Mac. Years later a little company named McDonald’s would introduce a double burger called the BigMac . The boys would later chuckle about it while driving to high school. They all go down to the office . Sitting outside the room, while each of them had to call home and say what they did. Matt come out sobbing and goes to class. “Johnny get in here boy, your turn” Mrs Champion says, the office secretary. Johnny goes in and all that could be heard sitting in the front office was “but Dad , dad, I didn’t b.. b... but dad “ a silent pause occurs then Johnny continues “no no daddy it was by the slide “ he spits out of his lips. A few minutes later Mr. Mackenzie opens his office door, Johnny comes out. Walking slow toward Larry not sobbing, or crying but, tears are welling up behind his lashes you can see any second he will break down and cry. Johnny as he walks past Larry raises his hand and chants “High five” Both boys smack palms together and smile as Johnny goes to class.

“BOYS!” Larry! “ Big Mac Yells

Larry gets up and goes into the office, closes the door and sits down. The principal while looking at the briefcase, engraved with RJL on a brass plate asks “who’s stuff is this Larry?” He answers quitly “We found it, sir” conveniently the same answer his friends all gave. Larry calls his dad, on the phone for a minute, nodding as his dad spoke, gave a few yes sirs. He passes the phone to the Principal “yes it does, ok “ principle MacKenzie says and hangs up the phone. “ Back to class, your dad will pick you up after school” he says. Larry goes to class, it’s now after lunch and he’s hungry but, he missed lunch while sitting in the office. He’s scared all afternoon to see his dad, his father can be very strict. The school bell rings, Larry goes out front looking for his dads 2 year old Blue Chev and sees it parked across the road .

Larry waits at the cross walk, glancing at the truck to see if father is watching him, He can feel his dad’s icy stare looking right through him. Larry walks over to the truck, grabs the shiny chrome handle and opens the door and says “hi dad!” His father doesn’t say a word, Larry gets in and sits down, buckled up . They begin to drive, still his father still hasn’t said a word. Then his dad, Ronald, after what seemed like an hour says “Larry, have you seen my brief case?” Not sure what to say says “no dad” His father mumbles something that was inaudible, “ok” Ronald says. At this point Larry is trying to think of what household item his dad is going to break over his ass. Turning the final corner home, Larry really getting nervous now . His dad says “ what happened to the banister, Larry? “ Larry frozen, unsure of what his next last words should be. He thought to him self, does he get a last meal before he dies of an ass whoopin? Larry’s dad reaches over, Larry tenses up , pats him on the back and says “it’s ok son, Boys will be boys”

Larry never got an ass whooping that day, Ronald James Lunch decided that is was all boys just being boys and no beatings needed

These are stories, just stories based loosely on some experiences my father in law has had. He is an interesting man with a heart of gold 💛

There will be more Tales of Larry

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Jake saved his money, he was only 7 but wanted a pug. So our oldest son did just that and bought her with his own money. Just under $200 he saved from Christmas and all the way till May, when he got his birthday money from aunts and uncles. His birthday had just passed and he wanted a fat, snorting little puppy, we never had a pug before. At the time we just had 2 dogs Sumo and Julie . Sumo is now in heaven but we have 3 pugs Julie, Harper and Stan Lee ( Stan for short) and a white Shepard makes Charlie . Needless to say we LOVE pugs as we have 3 now!

We sold our houses and we moved to our new home on 3 plus acres just east of the city. Little did we know our previous owners left a pregnant cat on our property living under our old leaning to the left shed . So my first project was a new cat house for them, nothing big 9x9. Small enough a little heater can keep it warm no problem in the winter, a perfect place for our mouse hunters to live. 3 windows for them to look out of. Most importantly a place for them to hide from predators. Here is a pic of the glorious cat house. I’ve had friends say “why did you make it so nice ?” Well my answer is always the same, I love those little cats and just in case Lee makes me sleep in the dog house, I’ll choose to sleep in the cat house.

Well the Mama kitty, KITKAT, had babies and soon got inside our house to snoop around. Curiosity of a cat am I right ? Julie went to chase and play and mama didn’t want any of what she was offering. Being a new mom was also protecting her little ones, so swatted at Julie. We didn’t think anything of it, she acted normal no issues. Then a day later we notice she was squinting, so in the morning we take her to the vet and she had a scratch on her cornea. Cats scratches are very infectious, cat scratch fever is not just a song by Ted Nugent.

We got some drops and off we went back home to administer drops for a few days. A couple days later all of a sudden we notice her eye is huge, popping out of her head. She still acted 100% normal, didn’t act any different. It’s Sunday morning and nothing is open but the Emergency Vet. Anyone with animals hates those two words .

🚨EMERGENCY VET🚨

Emergency vets, They are 3 times the price, they don’t know you like your vet does but What can we do? This is our little pug so we jump in the car, Pug on my lap looking out the window at all the passing traffic. The vet says Julies eye is about to explode from infection and needs to be removed right now. They need a credit card before they would do the surgery, so reluctantly I bring out the plastic. SIGH 😔 The pug princess has the surgery, everything went well, we did an upgrade and the put a “ marble “ in place of her eye . This stopped it from concaving in, it just looks like her eye is shut or winking 😉

When we got home Julie didn’t change one bit, you would never know that she had an eye removed. It really does look like she is blinking. My only hope is that she would stop chasing the cats. I have a fear she will end up with no sight at all one day. Well she has not changed at all, Now she charges the cats and turtles herself hides her head so she can check them. Reminds me of Zack Kassian and Mathew Tkachuk, only Julie is the turtle In this story ( Sorry Calgary, couldn’t resist )

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Everyone has a life changing story from youth or a story about a precious item or belonging, a shirt, a teddy bear that you had something that moulds your soul into the person you are. One of my many stories is about an egg, a little abandoned egg

Snow was still melting from the spring heat, grass was just starting to peak through and show its self, birds were chirpin and fluttering about. The nice old man up the street had a bird house up really high on a wooden post, being only 5 years old this was really intriguing to me seeing it way up in the sky. In my minds eye I remember it so fondly. Birds would fly in and out of the multi tiered white house with a pointed roof. I’d watch for what seemed like hours

The old man seen me outside always looking up at it . Opened his screen door and hollered,

”Hey Gordie, do you want to help me clean it “

Well I felt a warmth of happiness come over me, so I answer back “ oh yes ! Can we do it now ?!” and that’s just what we did. He brought out an old wooden ladder that went straight to the heavens. I stayed safely on the ground and eagerly watched. He cleaned the outside and wiped it all down. He then flipped open the roof, it was hinged “oh man so cool!” He cleaned all the old twigs, seed and crud out so it was ready for new families to move in.

No matter if I was at home or school all I could think about was seeing the birds, hours turned to days, days turn to weeks. One day I was over there to check it out as I always did, I find a fragile egg on the ground. A cute tiny little egg, it looked just like a Cadbury Mini Egg that you get at Easter time. Surely I couldn’t put it back up in the house it was to high, I justified to myself in my head because I wanted it. I wanted to take it home and hatch it and have a little bird of my own. That’s just what I did, I made a nest out of twigs and mud. I mushed it together and formed a donut.

Do you know those memes that people show you what a perfect cake or art project is supposed to look like, then they show you thier crappy attemp at it ? Well this nest was the latter version.

So I stretched my arms up and placed it in a tree, which was about 3 feet off the ground after all I am 5. I’d put a little teady bear on the egg at night and day to keep it warm . I loved that little egg, like Gollum to a ring. This little egg was my precious.

I waited for my little bird to hatch, it never did. I wish I could say it hatched and was my pet little birdie. But no luck, Needless to say I was devastated and heart broken ....

I cried and cried and

I swear it still haunts me to this day, maybe where my stutter came from? I’m not sure. I still feel pain from it now, why didn’t it just hatch ? I would have been a good bird daddy

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It was a few years ago now but we remember like it was yesterday, my wife and I like to take a holiday just the two of us . Mommy and Daddy time 😉 . We normally book time off and don’t know where we are going for our well needed week off. Sounds strange right ? Well we have had smoking deals by doing this. We did Cabo San Lucas for really cheap, we have done Jamaica and our most recent trip and one of our best was to Curaçao ( Cure-ah-souw ) yes there’s a liqueur that comes from the island. We were searching 2 days before our planed time off and we found a Air Canada deal, We had our flight/hotel/taxes was $675 each = $1350 for both of us. We flew to Toronto first then to the small Dutch Caribbean island Located off the coast of Venezuela and covering just over 400 square kilometres of beauty

Means Welcome the Aruban language, Papiamento, which is only spoken on the Dutch Caribbean islands of Aruba, Bonaire, Curacao or other wise know as the ABC islands. Everywhere u go this phrase is heard from all the happy locals.

Our hotel was called Floris Suites, it was a quaint little boutique hotel, the pool was spacious with lots of room. To be honest, We went in the ocean more than the Pool. We ate a steak night dinner for $35 each at the Hilton across the street on Friday night, we lucked out and got to do it twice. It was amazing, met some great people and chatted up the night watched the sun go down

We rented a car $100 US for 4 days to explore, it was a new car not anything we heard of but new. It was also a standard. I have not driven a standard in 20 years or more, the man dropped it off to us at the hotel. I took the keys, my wife got in the car. I get in and start it, The man stared at me in horror as I grinded the gears trying to move . I stalled it 5 times at least, his horror turned into Laughter as I now had 3 people around me chuckling. It really took some getting used to but after a day of driving I was all good, like riding a bike as they say. Found the national park and did some hiking, there where so many beaches to see. Best one we found had pigs 🐷, they were really friendly guys. You could pet them and everything. We went snorkeling, I can’t swim at all and I could go 100 yards out no problem still touching the bottom. The water was so different than any that I’ve been in before. I don’t know if the Caribbean Sea is more buoyant? We could both just float around and take in the view. Even had a turtle swim right by !

A little history

Dutch Settlers arrived in 1634, they built forts at specific locations around the island to protect from foreign powers, privateers, and pirates. Six of the forts can still be seen today.

We went to a little island called Klein 1.7 square kilometre island. There was phosphate mining in the late 1870’s and early 80’s, once that was mined out the island became inhabitable. The Dutch West India Company brought slaves to Curaçao. But Before they came to mainland Curaçao, the sick were placed in quarantine at Klein island. The slaves, sick and other passengers who did not survive the rough sea voyage were buried at Klein. There are several graves still on the island. The first quarantine building can still be found as well. The reason we went to Klein was for beautiful day of snorkeling, this island has the best coral reef to snorkel. We had a BBQ that the tour company put on for all of us . We walked the whole island, bring water . The climate on Klein is like a desert. On our walk we found ship wrecks, even a small tanker being pounded by the waves, a 20 metre tall light house built in 1870, now converted to solar power LED. You can go up the old, narrow winding staircase to the top and get a nice view of the island .

The iconic images below were once white stucco, it was so blinding when the sun hit the building that they changed the colours of all the shops . Lots of great food, great shopping and they took US and Canadian dollars ! Bonus 👏🏻 Everything was very reasonable cost, nothing was crazy. If anything it was on the cheaper side. We went to see a movie in there huge mall. To see the movie, 2-pops , 2-popcorn and M&M’s was $14 US . The walk way in the image below is a bridge that opens up to allow ships to enter.

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This is just a blog to hear what it’s like to deal with a speech problem day in and day out. Sure , Yes I’m in good health, have all my hands and feet, fingers and my toes ... well not really. I’m missing a index finger, I am a Carpenter after all. Yes I know it doesn’t seem like that big of a deal to have a stutter and I wouldn’t call it a disabling problem for me, for some people it really REALLY is and I have met some in my travels. It breaks my heart to see them struggle because I know exactly how they feel . Stuttering has its challenges that’s for sure. So thought I’d post some tips and tricks that helped me over the decades .

Some Famous people who stuttered, that you probably never even knew did.

Julia Roberts

The soft speech Marilyn did was a way to control your breathing, not just being sexy

No no not Kieth Urban, but Nicole Kidman ✅

James Earl Jones, yes Darth Vader stuttered !

Samuel L Jackson – he revealed that this swear word wards off a stutter he has been battling since his childhood, he’s said it in every movie. Even says it under his breath to help him .... what’s that swear word – MOTHERF$&KER – see I told you

And even the king himself, Elvis

Yes I do stutter as well, but I’m a nobody ..... Not quite sure when it started but they say trauma can have something to do with it ? We moved from Winnipeg at a very young age. All my family is back there, I still go back every once and awhile to visit them. So I don’t know exactly when it started? Maybe that was a tramattraumatic moment for me, I was enrolled in speech classes when I was around 8 years old . As a child I was WAY worse than I am today . I got picked on lots, which kind of made me a bully. I would bully before I got bullied, many thinks I regret. Kids can be mean and cruel, and I was no exception .....

Institute for stutter treatment and research (ISTAR)located in Edmonton Alberta Canada 🇨🇦

ISTAR Is a great place to go. They teach you how to talk softly and how to pronounce hard syllables ect. Light touches with your tongue as well as Breathing, breathing is a huge thing to help as well. When to take breaths ect ... It all helps but only if you use it, which I was a kid so not all the time did I use the tricks I was taught. I adapted and found a way to talk so to speak 😉 Pronunciation of hard letters is more difficult than soft letters. For instance my own name has caused me more grief than anything -Gord, impossible for me to say. Introducing my self at meetings is almost physically impossible . Unless I add a soft sound in front of it, If I add a “ I’m “ Infront it makes it easier to say. “I’m Gord” Done right ? Just add soft syllables infromt of hard ones when I have to say them. Well no not really that easy, Eminem said it best in a song Lose yourself. Minus the spaghetti part

His palms are sweaty, knees weak, arms are heavy

There's vomit on his sweater already, mom's spaghetti

He's nervous, but on the surface he looks calm and ready

To drop bombs, but he keeps on forgettin'

All of that and more, your mind starts to get scared days/weeks ahead of meetings, phone calls, meeting new people ect. If I can use words that I know I can say then I’m 90% good. For example if I’m talking about building a deck I would say “hangers” not “joist hangers” or I would say “floor joist” not “joist” or “patio” instead of “deck” get the idea ? But if had to read word for word from a script, I would be royally screwed! Most people would never know I stutter, my wife always thinks I am incredibly fast and make quick witted funny comments in conversation with people. And I do because I play out so many things in my mind all the time it’s tiring but I’m used to it . I guess stuttering you learn to think fast on your feet? There’s a positive right there ! I get home and my head is just exhausted, ready to blow off.

It’s difficult to explain so I hope I’m getting my point across . I do hide it very well because I plan every conversation / dialog almost and If I can say words I know I can use. Drive-thru’s don’t even get me started, I’ll say ummm, ummm, ummm and the person will say over the speaker “ what’s a matter did you forget your order , hahahah” haha ya that’s exactly what happened 🤬🤬 happens once a week I bet This happens. When I stutter on my name, what’s the famous line I hear “ what’s a matter did you forget you own name ?? “ But technology has helped me lots, There are ways to make my life easier, texting and emails, using my business card with my name on it when I meet people and changing to words I can say. I make it though ok, but it’s tough. Some days with lots of talking I’m mentally drained, I can hardly think.

So next time some one stammers or stutters, seems to hesitate just remember the troubles they went through today doing simple things that people blessed with fluent speech don’t need to worry about , like ordering their extra large, double cream, double sugar coffee . With a bagel Toasted with peanut butter . And then your 11 year old son asks for a blueberry granola muffin out of the blue. When you haven’t had time to prepare, inside it makes me want to .....

!!! Scream !!!

But I don’t, I keep it some what together and I order that MOTHERFUCKING muffin !!

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JERRY, JERRY, JERRY

This will finally come to an end, maybe a little long winded but all was needed I think . Well where did we leave off?? oh yes, with myself being a drunk driver ( never crashed or hurt any one thank god), my situation not good I knew I had to leave and my mom got cancer ❤️

Wanna catch up to speed ? Read my last two blogs

So my mom has cancer and we my sister, me and my Aunt and Uncle from Winnipeg who moved here for months to help out Are looking after her , Living day to day with that, again that’s another story. So not going to talk about that much here but FUCK YOU CANCER !

I kind of feel parts of this are not my story to tell so I will be vague and be as nice as I can be given the events that unfold .

Lee calls me devastated, And I mean crushed ! Mike is cheating on her with one of our best friends wives, some one we can not stand! I mean no one can stand her. A real crazy back stabbing women. Evil to her core. So They are getting a divorce, wow I was in shock ... at this point in the story they now have another son named Griff. Those poor 2 boys, Jake 6 and Griff 2. I never heard from Mike again After that. Not 1 phone call or text. I was pretty mad, I mean he has two kids.

I go for lunch with Lee’s Dad (Larry)we talk and can’t believe it .

It was a messy divorce, I would go for lunch with Lee and we would talk. I was friends with her after all, I knew her years before Mike. Lee and I have know each other since grade 3. Mike has the boys for a holiday and Lee said she would go crazy sitting at home with out her boys. So I said let’s go to Vegas, my treat I said ! So we went in early June, it was a blast

That was a great holiday, Lee and I had a lot of fun. Walking and talking, suppers and the piano bar at New York, New York .. Mike was on his holiday with his boys as it turns out that was one of the last times he seen them. Jake didn’t want to eat something so he wasn’t allowed back. Griff went a little more but then he too got the boot. It’s been 9 year’s since he seen them, not a phone call on birthdays, no cards, no Christmas wishes, NOTHING ! He dumped them like yesterday’s garbage. Never to be seen again, I know this all too well ...dead beat dads For I had one too

Well I’m guessing you have figured it out by now, I was alone for Christmas that year just me and my Doberman. My Mom was now with the angels, Lee and the boys said come over for Christmas and bring Sumo! That’s just what I did, brought my dog and lots of presents. After Christmas I was going to leave And go back home but sumo wouldn’t leave her house, I guess he kinda liked her... I do too buddy , I do too ! Lee said “ ahh just stay “ and I never left .... that spring Lee sold her house, I sold mine and we moved out to the country where we still are today .

Well well well, So it turns out I could be on Jerry again, Lee and I were in each other’s wedding parties, been strictly friends for years, I’ve been around her family for decades, The list goes on .

Yes if you havent connected the dots, I’m a step dad. I never mentioned it because these are my kid’s. 100% they are mine, I may not be the father but I am the Dad ... I always say my kids, I don’t say my step kids. They don’t remember a time I haven’t been in their life. And I always will be

Here is a photo of my son Jake age 6 with now our Doberman Sumo .

One last thing to close out this trilogy of how I ended up with my wife. I am the luckily one. I don’t know if lucky is the right word ? Because it was inevitable. I have 2 amazing kids , 1 beautiful wife. I have 3 amazing people in my immediate family, they just got me . But I get 3 ! Also An extended family the greatest mother and father in-law / sister in-law / nephew who are some of the best people I have ever met . And of course Lee gets my amazing family, my sister and partner , nephews , all my aunts, uncle and Cousins’s in good old Winnepeg.. well almost all ... we will go 95% great in Winnepeg 😂 you know who you are 🤣 ... and on Lee’s side aunts and uncles , I mean this is a wonderful group of people . I guess good people attract good people ❤️ As much as we tried to stay apart the universe had other plans. Many opportunities in both our lives and this story would have ended different. I am blessed everyday for the things we have , in a time like this even more so.

Thank you for reading ❤️

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